Pleasure in pleasing.

Day 23 and going strong, sleep is still hit or miss but like I said before I’m not completely blaming that on chastity. I find I can’t stay up as late anymore so that could be why I get so restless around 5:00 am and probably because my mind starts going the minute I wake up. It’s seems the first thing I think of in the morning is what day I’m on and how many more days left to go ( that I know of)!

I still don’t feel that horny or frustrated yet, I have been getting attention but it doesn’t seem to drive me crazy for too long after the attention has stopped. The new cage restricts erections more than the holy trainer so maybe that makes the attention I do get less enjoyable and that’s why I find I’m not too frustrated. But on the other hand the attention I have got hasn’t been too extreme, it has been more on the lines of foreplay and not a tease and I have yet to get any stimulation while out of the cage. I personally prefer it that way, it takes the risk factor out of having a tease go too far.

After the dry spell of our first 2 weeks of the challenge I’ve found myself wanting to please and get Mistresses orgasm count up. I’ve easily made up for that dry spell, Mistress is now averaging an orgasm a day in March and 4 a week so far this year. I’ve found I’m wanting to play more often now but it’s not because I want attention. In the past I’ve wanted to play more often while I’m locked and denied but that was mainly because I wanted attention, sure I wanted to please back than too but that wasn’t my main focus. Lately my main focus seems to be on pleasing and not receiving pleasure.

I’ve read in several places that a denied male will shift his focus to giving pleasure when he can’t have his own pleasure but I’ve never truly experienced it until now. I don’t want to go as far as saying I use to think it was a myth but this feeling I’m having is totally different than how I’ve felt in my past experiences. Maybe this go round is different for me because I really want to last the full 100 days without an orgasm and I’m avoiding my pleasure to minimize the risk of an accidental orgasm. But if that was the case you’d think I would just avoid play time all together.

In the past I’ve found I get a bit grumpy around the 3 week mark and so far I haven’t experienced that. Maybe it is because I’m really not too frustrated yet or it’s because I know it usually happens around now and I’m trying my hardest to not let it happen.