I’ve had more wet dreams as an adult than I did as a growing boy. As far as I can remember I only had 1 wet dream when I was an early teen going through puberty, as a grown man I’ve had 3. All three happened after chastity and tease & denial were introduced.
My first wet dream really took Mistress and I by surprise. We had more less just got into lengthy (more than a week) denial periods and about 10 days in it happened. The dream was fairly vivid and I remember waking up just after I climaxed in my dream. The sheets were still wet and warm and I felt how I would of if I had a normal orgasm while awake. I woke Mistress up by telling her not to roll over into the wet spot and she seemed happily surprised by me having a wet dream.
The second one was years later and I didn’t remember any of the dream. When I woke up the sheets were wet and sticky and that was the only sign that I had a good dream. I didn’t feel anything like I did the first time and got no pleasure out of it. This dream was about 30+ days into a stretch of denial.
The third time was once again a few years later and just over 3 weeks into a denial stint. It was a mix of the first two experiences. I remembered the dream and my orgasm but I didn’t wake up instantly, so in the morning I felt the same as the second time. I would describe that feeling as extra frustrated and feeling no relief.
Since than I’ve had one strange experience but woke up to dry sheets. It was also a fairly vivid dream on the lines of foreplay and than it just kind of skipped to the end result of cuddling after sex. It was almost like how a TV movie skips part of the movie during commercials and this scene that got skipped was the money shot. I remember the action leading up the point of penetration than things went dark and all of a sudden we were at the other end of the bed still breathing heavy and all hot and sweaty. I told Mistress about this dream and she seemed amused that I avoided a wet dream and now thinks I have the power to control my urges in my sleep.
So now 38 days into my 100 day challenge my history tells me that a wet dream should be right around the corner but now I’m scared to have one. Mistress thinks I now should be able to control that and has straight out said I’ll be in trouble if I have a wet dream. I’ve done my research and explained to Mistress that it’s a natural bodily function and it can’t be avoided and she more less said it’s still me cumming without permission. She hasn’t said for sure but she is making me believe that it will be considered a fail and I will be starting all over again back at day one. If that’s the case my 100 day challenge could turn into permanent chastity with wet dreams as my only form of sexual release.
Sunday, 25 March 2018
Punishment and discipline
Today is day 34 so potentially over 1/3 done my challenge. I say potentially because Mistress has the final say if it does end after 100 days. I’m finally starting to feel horny but not really a frustrated horny. My mind is all over the place wanting stuff but since I know I can’t have an orgasm that’s not what I want. I want kink, all kinds of kink! My mind jumps from wanting stuff like bondage and nipple clamps to be humiliated. I think in general I just want a reminder that I’m submissive and Mistress is in charge.
Back in the days of our points system Mistress would take away points as a punishment, that worked good at first until I collected a massive amount of points. I could have multiple infractions and still have enough points to get anything off our menu I wanted. After that we needed to bring in a new form of punishment.
The common theme pointed to spanking as punishment so why not try that path. We had played around with spanking prior to this but play is the key word there. It had always been more sensual than anything. Along with that we would sometimes use chastity and denial as punishment but if that’s what I wanted at the time it wasn’t a real punishment.
At first things worked out great, if I screwed up Mistress would get me to drop my pants right there and than and she would correct my actions. Sometimes she would even just casually walk away to get a weapon of her choice and return telling me to bend over. This was all fine as long as we were alone and at home but what about if we were out and about or had company over. Mistress did take mental notes and sometimes actual written notes of my infractions but sometimes my actions never got corrected. Eventually punish just faded away as our adventure would go into hibernation.
Just prior to the arrival of our newborn I proposed an idea to Mistress that not only would correct my actions but also get our adventure back on track. My idea was to spank me once a week every week if I needed it or not, it was more less intended to be a weekly review of my actions. I think we started out with 5 spanks just for maintenance and than 1 for each infraction. We tried that for a few weeks but decided to up it 5 spanks a cheek for maintenance and 2 spanks per cheek for each infraction.
My maintenance spanks come first and Mistress makes me count them out, they are about medium strength and gradually increase in sting factor. Than my infraction spanking come and they are slightly above medium strength. I’m also made to count those out and say why I am receiving them. Mistress usually makes me drop my pants and bend over the foot of the bed than ask me if I think I’ve been a good boy this week. So far all the spanks have been delivered by a crop but Mistress does like to keep a wooden spoon on hand if I deserve it.
We have been practicing this for probably close to half a year now and I would say it’s really helped get things back on track. It is our Sunday activity and we have only had to reschedule it later in the week 2 or 3 times now. Since I’ve started the 100 day challenge I’ve only had 3 infractions that needed to be corrected, I’m not sure if they will come back into play later so I’m trying to keep track of them.
This post took me a few days to complete so it is now Sunday day 38 and I will only be receiving my maintenance spankings this week since I’ve been an extra good boy this week.
Back in the days of our points system Mistress would take away points as a punishment, that worked good at first until I collected a massive amount of points. I could have multiple infractions and still have enough points to get anything off our menu I wanted. After that we needed to bring in a new form of punishment.
The common theme pointed to spanking as punishment so why not try that path. We had played around with spanking prior to this but play is the key word there. It had always been more sensual than anything. Along with that we would sometimes use chastity and denial as punishment but if that’s what I wanted at the time it wasn’t a real punishment.
At first things worked out great, if I screwed up Mistress would get me to drop my pants right there and than and she would correct my actions. Sometimes she would even just casually walk away to get a weapon of her choice and return telling me to bend over. This was all fine as long as we were alone and at home but what about if we were out and about or had company over. Mistress did take mental notes and sometimes actual written notes of my infractions but sometimes my actions never got corrected. Eventually punish just faded away as our adventure would go into hibernation.
Just prior to the arrival of our newborn I proposed an idea to Mistress that not only would correct my actions but also get our adventure back on track. My idea was to spank me once a week every week if I needed it or not, it was more less intended to be a weekly review of my actions. I think we started out with 5 spanks just for maintenance and than 1 for each infraction. We tried that for a few weeks but decided to up it 5 spanks a cheek for maintenance and 2 spanks per cheek for each infraction.
My maintenance spanks come first and Mistress makes me count them out, they are about medium strength and gradually increase in sting factor. Than my infraction spanking come and they are slightly above medium strength. I’m also made to count those out and say why I am receiving them. Mistress usually makes me drop my pants and bend over the foot of the bed than ask me if I think I’ve been a good boy this week. So far all the spanks have been delivered by a crop but Mistress does like to keep a wooden spoon on hand if I deserve it.
We have been practicing this for probably close to half a year now and I would say it’s really helped get things back on track. It is our Sunday activity and we have only had to reschedule it later in the week 2 or 3 times now. Since I’ve started the 100 day challenge I’ve only had 3 infractions that needed to be corrected, I’m not sure if they will come back into play later so I’m trying to keep track of them.
This post took me a few days to complete so it is now Sunday day 38 and I will only be receiving my maintenance spankings this week since I’ve been an extra good boy this week.
Saturday, 10 March 2018
Pleasure in pleasing.
Day 23 and going strong, sleep is still hit or miss but like I said before I’m not completely blaming that on chastity. I find I can’t stay up as late anymore so that could be why I get so restless around 5:00 am and probably because my mind starts going the minute I wake up. It’s seems the first thing I think of in the morning is what day I’m on and how many more days left to go ( that I know of)!
I still don’t feel that horny or frustrated yet, I have been getting attention but it doesn’t seem to drive me crazy for too long after the attention has stopped. The new cage restricts erections more than the holy trainer so maybe that makes the attention I do get less enjoyable and that’s why I find I’m not too frustrated. But on the other hand the attention I have got hasn’t been too extreme, it has been more on the lines of foreplay and not a tease and I have yet to get any stimulation while out of the cage. I personally prefer it that way, it takes the risk factor out of having a tease go too far.
After the dry spell of our first 2 weeks of the challenge I’ve found myself wanting to please and get Mistresses orgasm count up. I’ve easily made up for that dry spell, Mistress is now averaging an orgasm a day in March and 4 a week so far this year. I’ve found I’m wanting to play more often now but it’s not because I want attention. In the past I’ve wanted to play more often while I’m locked and denied but that was mainly because I wanted attention, sure I wanted to please back than too but that wasn’t my main focus. Lately my main focus seems to be on pleasing and not receiving pleasure.
I’ve read in several places that a denied male will shift his focus to giving pleasure when he can’t have his own pleasure but I’ve never truly experienced it until now. I don’t want to go as far as saying I use to think it was a myth but this feeling I’m having is totally different than how I’ve felt in my past experiences. Maybe this go round is different for me because I really want to last the full 100 days without an orgasm and I’m avoiding my pleasure to minimize the risk of an accidental orgasm. But if that was the case you’d think I would just avoid play time all together.
In the past I’ve found I get a bit grumpy around the 3 week mark and so far I haven’t experienced that. Maybe it is because I’m really not too frustrated yet or it’s because I know it usually happens around now and I’m trying my hardest to not let it happen.
I still don’t feel that horny or frustrated yet, I have been getting attention but it doesn’t seem to drive me crazy for too long after the attention has stopped. The new cage restricts erections more than the holy trainer so maybe that makes the attention I do get less enjoyable and that’s why I find I’m not too frustrated. But on the other hand the attention I have got hasn’t been too extreme, it has been more on the lines of foreplay and not a tease and I have yet to get any stimulation while out of the cage. I personally prefer it that way, it takes the risk factor out of having a tease go too far.
After the dry spell of our first 2 weeks of the challenge I’ve found myself wanting to please and get Mistresses orgasm count up. I’ve easily made up for that dry spell, Mistress is now averaging an orgasm a day in March and 4 a week so far this year. I’ve found I’m wanting to play more often now but it’s not because I want attention. In the past I’ve wanted to play more often while I’m locked and denied but that was mainly because I wanted attention, sure I wanted to please back than too but that wasn’t my main focus. Lately my main focus seems to be on pleasing and not receiving pleasure.
I’ve read in several places that a denied male will shift his focus to giving pleasure when he can’t have his own pleasure but I’ve never truly experienced it until now. I don’t want to go as far as saying I use to think it was a myth but this feeling I’m having is totally different than how I’ve felt in my past experiences. Maybe this go round is different for me because I really want to last the full 100 days without an orgasm and I’m avoiding my pleasure to minimize the risk of an accidental orgasm. But if that was the case you’d think I would just avoid play time all together.
In the past I’ve found I get a bit grumpy around the 3 week mark and so far I haven’t experienced that. Maybe it is because I’m really not too frustrated yet or it’s because I know it usually happens around now and I’m trying my hardest to not let it happen.
Saturday, 3 March 2018
Day 16
So far the days seem to be sailing along just fine, my sleeps are still off and on and my frustration level doesn’t seem too bad. There really hasn’t been too much play time until this week so that could be why my frustration level isn’t bothering me. As for my sleeps I’m not completely blaming that on chastity either, we keep the house at a warmer temperature now with the new baby so I find my self waking up hot and with dry mouth.
During my first 2 weeks there was absolutely no play time just due to busy schedules and no energy left over in the free time we did have but I made a point of trying to change that this week. Mistress hadn’t received any pleasure since she locked me up and I let her know I wanted to change that so we went to bed early Wednesday night. We were just laying there cuddling and kissing and I decided I wanted to make this time all about her, it’s been a really long time since she has received a worship per say and got all the attention without giving any attention.
I got Mistress to roll over and lay on her back and I straddled her and began kissing her neck, I kissed from ear to ear trying to cover every square inch. I moved down to collar bones and high chest and continued to try to kiss every square inch, by this time her breathing had got heavy and she was letting out little moans. I focused on her collarbones for a bit longer before moving down the center of her chest, her neck and collarbones are my go to spot when I really want to get her worked up. As I worked my way down the center of her chest I circled each breast with kisses than worked my way in , I didn’t give her nipples much attention as she is still producing milk and that makes me a bit scared of her breasts for some strange reason now. Her breasts got equal attention and I continued my path down the center of her body one kiss at a time, a quick circle around the belly button and down to her waist line. By this point it was quite obvious that she was really worked up, I could of planted my face right between her legs and finished her off in no time but I wasn’t done with the foreplay yet. I focused on her waistline because that’s my next go to spot to get her all hot and bothered, keeping with my every square inch method I kissed from side to side and back again as much as I could without rolling her onto her sides or stomach. Once I got to the side of her waist I moved to the inside of her thighs, still trying to kiss as much of her as I can but staying away from her pussy. I stayed as close as I could to her pussy and kissed as far back as I could on her thighs or lower bum cheek than back to the center of her thigh and continued my way down one kiss at a time. By the time I ran out of thigh and got to her knee I had a decision to make, do I keep going all the way down right to her feet or do I repeat everything on the other thigh first. I decided the other thigh because I was already at the very foot of the bed and I didn’t want to uncover Mistress and get out of bed. I kissed my way up her thigh and got as close as I could to her pussy again kissing the inside of her thigh working my way back to the far out side of her waistline, once I reached as far as I could without rolling her over I switched to the other side of her waistline. I more less repeated the same thing on the other leg but maybe a bit faster because I was getting eager to actually feel how excited she was getting from this attention. I finished my kissing path off at the center of her waistline and finally started my way down to her pussy.
I really wanted to just dive right in there and start going to town and drive her right over the edge in no time flat but I stayed with the more sensual thyme and just gently licked her pussy ( which was soaking wet and practically dripping by now). As she got closer to orgasm I ramped up my pace and pressure to push her across the finish line. I had no intentions of stopping and next thing I know I’m getting pushed away, this was something new usually Mistress pulls me up when she wants me to stop. Still kind of holding me back she caught her breath and simply said “ok” and let me go back to work. I licked her to another orgasm in a matter of minutes and once again got pushed away but this time with a “ I think I’m done”.
Later on Mistress told me that she almost had an orgasm before I even started eating her out. I asked her if she thought she would of if I would of continued kissing her legs right down to her feet and she said maybe but I might of got kicked in the face. I guess she was so turned on by the time I got to her thighs that some of those close to the pussy kisses were giving her that kind of ticklish jumpy sensation. She also told me that she pretty much came instantly the minute I started licking her and she actually had 2 orgasms before she pushed me away the first time. Some days I really can’t tell if she is having multiple orgasms or just one big one, so I was happy to hear that I got her off more than I originally thought.
After all that I took a walk around the house just to calm things down and release the pressure in the cage. It didn’t take long at all for the swelling to go down. I was turned on by what I just did but it wasn’t really a horny sensation. This just left me with a feeling of wanting to please instead of wanting to be pleased.
During my first 2 weeks there was absolutely no play time just due to busy schedules and no energy left over in the free time we did have but I made a point of trying to change that this week. Mistress hadn’t received any pleasure since she locked me up and I let her know I wanted to change that so we went to bed early Wednesday night. We were just laying there cuddling and kissing and I decided I wanted to make this time all about her, it’s been a really long time since she has received a worship per say and got all the attention without giving any attention.
I got Mistress to roll over and lay on her back and I straddled her and began kissing her neck, I kissed from ear to ear trying to cover every square inch. I moved down to collar bones and high chest and continued to try to kiss every square inch, by this time her breathing had got heavy and she was letting out little moans. I focused on her collarbones for a bit longer before moving down the center of her chest, her neck and collarbones are my go to spot when I really want to get her worked up. As I worked my way down the center of her chest I circled each breast with kisses than worked my way in , I didn’t give her nipples much attention as she is still producing milk and that makes me a bit scared of her breasts for some strange reason now. Her breasts got equal attention and I continued my path down the center of her body one kiss at a time, a quick circle around the belly button and down to her waist line. By this point it was quite obvious that she was really worked up, I could of planted my face right between her legs and finished her off in no time but I wasn’t done with the foreplay yet. I focused on her waistline because that’s my next go to spot to get her all hot and bothered, keeping with my every square inch method I kissed from side to side and back again as much as I could without rolling her onto her sides or stomach. Once I got to the side of her waist I moved to the inside of her thighs, still trying to kiss as much of her as I can but staying away from her pussy. I stayed as close as I could to her pussy and kissed as far back as I could on her thighs or lower bum cheek than back to the center of her thigh and continued my way down one kiss at a time. By the time I ran out of thigh and got to her knee I had a decision to make, do I keep going all the way down right to her feet or do I repeat everything on the other thigh first. I decided the other thigh because I was already at the very foot of the bed and I didn’t want to uncover Mistress and get out of bed. I kissed my way up her thigh and got as close as I could to her pussy again kissing the inside of her thigh working my way back to the far out side of her waistline, once I reached as far as I could without rolling her over I switched to the other side of her waistline. I more less repeated the same thing on the other leg but maybe a bit faster because I was getting eager to actually feel how excited she was getting from this attention. I finished my kissing path off at the center of her waistline and finally started my way down to her pussy.
I really wanted to just dive right in there and start going to town and drive her right over the edge in no time flat but I stayed with the more sensual thyme and just gently licked her pussy ( which was soaking wet and practically dripping by now). As she got closer to orgasm I ramped up my pace and pressure to push her across the finish line. I had no intentions of stopping and next thing I know I’m getting pushed away, this was something new usually Mistress pulls me up when she wants me to stop. Still kind of holding me back she caught her breath and simply said “ok” and let me go back to work. I licked her to another orgasm in a matter of minutes and once again got pushed away but this time with a “ I think I’m done”.
Later on Mistress told me that she almost had an orgasm before I even started eating her out. I asked her if she thought she would of if I would of continued kissing her legs right down to her feet and she said maybe but I might of got kicked in the face. I guess she was so turned on by the time I got to her thighs that some of those close to the pussy kisses were giving her that kind of ticklish jumpy sensation. She also told me that she pretty much came instantly the minute I started licking her and she actually had 2 orgasms before she pushed me away the first time. Some days I really can’t tell if she is having multiple orgasms or just one big one, so I was happy to hear that I got her off more than I originally thought.
After all that I took a walk around the house just to calm things down and release the pressure in the cage. It didn’t take long at all for the swelling to go down. I was turned on by what I just did but it wasn’t really a horny sensation. This just left me with a feeling of wanting to please instead of wanting to be pleased.
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