Well over a year ago we were playing around in bed, once again I was little spoon and Mistress was playing with my nipples. I’ve stated that my nipples are a big erogenous zone so they usually get a lot of attention in the form of mainly pinching and biting. I like to be little spoon for several reasons but mainly it just feels more submissive. Mistress can lay higher up than me and it gives a towering or overpowering sensation, her touches seem to control my movements, if she runs her hands down my back I tend to arch my back , if she grabs my hips or nipples I tend to spoon in closer, if she pulls on my nipples I stick my chest out and if she pulls my hair I tilt my head back. It’s almost like I’m her puppet.
This particular day she had me extra aroused and my body movements were more profound. As she pulled on my nipples my whole torso would thrust away from her. To counter this reaction Mistress put her leg over me which held me close but also worked to tease her cock. If I’m too close to the edge I will try to turtle instead of asking Mistress to stop or slow down. Well today I had nowhere to turtle to because I was already held close to Mistress , but she knew I was close to the edge from my attempt. Mistress doesn’t like it when I try to turtle and she will usually just tell me to ask her nicely to stop but this time she read the sign and slowed things down but with a warning. She straight out told me if a came on her leg I would be cleaning it up with my mouth!
This took me by total surprise, Mistress hasn’t even hinted at this before. I know it’s common for most male submissives to clean up their mess this way and I know Mistress has also done some research in the past so there is a good chance she learned that. But over our years of playing with tease and denial she had never brought it up until now.
The tease continued with her leg over top of me and she kept reminding me of what would happen if I came on her. She asked me if I have ever tasted my own cum and than told me that today might be the day I taste it. To make a long story short I didn’t cum on her leg, and to this day I haven’t had to clean up my mess yet.
So that day I found out that Mistress wants me to eat my own cum but she doesn’t want to force or order me to do it. She is more less keeping it for a punishment or until I’m so desperate that I’m willing to clean up my mess. So it has now become a rule that if I ever cum on Mistresses leg I will have to cross that bridge of cleaning up my own mess. I thought I’d be able to use this to my advantage and end denial periods when I really want to have an orgasm.
In our most recent go round with denial Mistress teased me to the extent that I was so desperate to cum that I actually asked Mistress if I could cum on her leg. I was so horny I was willing to pay that price for an orgasm. To my surprise Mistress shot me down so I guess I was wrong about having a bargaining chip. I was frustrated that I wasn’t allowed to cum but the next day I was happy that Mistress kept her foot down about denial and really happy that I still haven’t tasted my own cum!
Saturday, 13 January 2018
100 days will happen
Mistress has informed me that 100 days will happen. At first she just told me that it will be around the corner so I had to ask how far away that corner was, as per usual she didn’t give me any more information. A few days later she curled up to me in bed as the big spoon and started playing with my nipples than asked if I really wanted to know how far away that corner was. I know she likes to play with the element of suspense so as I good boy I said I really didn’t need to know. Mistress did end up sharing more information with me but no official date.
She wants to be able to spend Valentine’s Day with me which usually means being intimate in a more vanilla way. She didn’t want to wait too long and get into the heat of summer when things tend to get more sweaty and smelling. Both of these points made sense to me and I prefer not to be locked up in the summer. So as of right now I know I will remain free until February 14th.
I don’t know for sure but my guess is I will be locked back up after we make love on Valentine’s Day. If my guess is correct and I’ve added up my days right that’s means I won’t get to cum again until May 25th, that is if everything goes good. Mistress has already made comments of “at least 100 days” and put emphasis on the at least part.
The 2 main factors for it going past 100 days will be my behaviour and how Mistress handles the 100 days. I know she will have some fun with it and she will still be getting her pleasures but she will most likely be going without her cock inside her. She really loves the way her cock feels in her, but since we have started this adventure of tease and denial I have lost pretty much all my stamina when it comes to actual sex. Teasing is one thing because I can ask Mistress to stop or slow down but sex is a totally different story, there is too many different elements playing parts and I just can’t last or hold off when penetration is involved. Sure I can stop or slow down but than that brings Mistress further from orgasm. As for my behaviour I don’t know if Mistress will add more time if I do something that doesn’t please her. I guess it all depends on how she is coping with the challenge.
Part of me is scared that she will have lots of fun with it and be content without actual sex, that could mean she will have no problem adding extra time for my infractions. At the same time that fear is exciting, I want Mistress to advance and push me past what I asked for. I just have to remember that I asked for all of this and I have to be strong and not complain.
She wants to be able to spend Valentine’s Day with me which usually means being intimate in a more vanilla way. She didn’t want to wait too long and get into the heat of summer when things tend to get more sweaty and smelling. Both of these points made sense to me and I prefer not to be locked up in the summer. So as of right now I know I will remain free until February 14th.
I don’t know for sure but my guess is I will be locked back up after we make love on Valentine’s Day. If my guess is correct and I’ve added up my days right that’s means I won’t get to cum again until May 25th, that is if everything goes good. Mistress has already made comments of “at least 100 days” and put emphasis on the at least part.
The 2 main factors for it going past 100 days will be my behaviour and how Mistress handles the 100 days. I know she will have some fun with it and she will still be getting her pleasures but she will most likely be going without her cock inside her. She really loves the way her cock feels in her, but since we have started this adventure of tease and denial I have lost pretty much all my stamina when it comes to actual sex. Teasing is one thing because I can ask Mistress to stop or slow down but sex is a totally different story, there is too many different elements playing parts and I just can’t last or hold off when penetration is involved. Sure I can stop or slow down but than that brings Mistress further from orgasm. As for my behaviour I don’t know if Mistress will add more time if I do something that doesn’t please her. I guess it all depends on how she is coping with the challenge.
Part of me is scared that she will have lots of fun with it and be content without actual sex, that could mean she will have no problem adding extra time for my infractions. At the same time that fear is exciting, I want Mistress to advance and push me past what I asked for. I just have to remember that I asked for all of this and I have to be strong and not complain.
Sunday, 7 January 2018
Love and Hate
I’ve always had a love hate relationship with chastity since it came into play, this also goes for denial but they usually go hand in hand for us anyways.
Both chastity and denial bring out my submissive feelings, even if I am the one who decides to put the cage on. Just feeling the cage between my legs is a constant reminder of me losing or giving up control. Mix that with a good tease session and some sexual frustration and my mind goes right into sub space. When ever I really get into sub space I find myself wanting more, almost needing to be deeper into that space. I want more or longer tease sessions, I want bondage or other kinkier toys to be involved in those sessions and I want something that’s going to be a constant reminder after the session has ended. In the journey I discovered I’m a nipple slut, I’ve always enjoyed nipple attention but it has become more aggressive over the years and isn’t just kissing, licking and little pinches anymore. After a really good tease session my nipples can be swollen and sore, resulting in a good reminder for hours or even days to come. Another good reminder is spankings but we don’t play with those to the extent of a reminder for days.
One of my biggest hates or even fears with chastity is someone else noticing or finding out Mistress and I secret. I’m always worried it’s noticeable under my clothes or worried someone might look over while I’m using the urinal. I’ve gotten pretty good at peeing standing up while in chastity over the years so I can still do that when I’m out and about, but at home it’s a rule that I must sit to pee. Pretty sure Mistress made that rule to take away some of my masculinity along with the obvious cleanliness reason. Other hates are being uncomfortable with rubbing or pinching the wrongs areas, I’ve now had to change the way I bend over to pick up stuff because of that. Not sleeping so well because of rude wake up calls, but that isn’t as much of an issue with the holy trainer vs the CB series. Hygiene in general is more difficult in chastity and maintenance like making sure I’m well lotions or oiled to minimized rubbing and chaffing.
As for denial that’s a different story. There really is only one thing to hate but it can also be loved. Sexual frustration is a weird thing, I can love it one day and hate it the next. All the variables can be the same but the outcome of love or hate can change. I can be teased one day for X amount of time and have no issues walking it off when Mistress says so, and there’s other days when I can have that same arousal level and the tease could be exactly the same but I don’t want to walk it, I want it to be finished off the proper way with an orgasm. Some days I handle it great and others I turn into a whinny little brat who doesn’t want orgasm denial. I have learned to deal with that better since I know Mistress really disapproves of it. Now I just become a desperate horny mess and try bargaining with her for an orgasm, that’s a different story so keep your eyes open for that. I’m not playing the blame game but I think part of it is because Mistress doesn’t set lengths of denial in stone, or doesn’t tell me about it if she does. I think if I was told I won’t be getting an orgasm until X date I could handle it better and not get whinny. But Mistress loves the mind trips she can send me on and as much as I try that’s not something I can get use to.
Both chastity and denial bring out my submissive feelings, even if I am the one who decides to put the cage on. Just feeling the cage between my legs is a constant reminder of me losing or giving up control. Mix that with a good tease session and some sexual frustration and my mind goes right into sub space. When ever I really get into sub space I find myself wanting more, almost needing to be deeper into that space. I want more or longer tease sessions, I want bondage or other kinkier toys to be involved in those sessions and I want something that’s going to be a constant reminder after the session has ended. In the journey I discovered I’m a nipple slut, I’ve always enjoyed nipple attention but it has become more aggressive over the years and isn’t just kissing, licking and little pinches anymore. After a really good tease session my nipples can be swollen and sore, resulting in a good reminder for hours or even days to come. Another good reminder is spankings but we don’t play with those to the extent of a reminder for days.
One of my biggest hates or even fears with chastity is someone else noticing or finding out Mistress and I secret. I’m always worried it’s noticeable under my clothes or worried someone might look over while I’m using the urinal. I’ve gotten pretty good at peeing standing up while in chastity over the years so I can still do that when I’m out and about, but at home it’s a rule that I must sit to pee. Pretty sure Mistress made that rule to take away some of my masculinity along with the obvious cleanliness reason. Other hates are being uncomfortable with rubbing or pinching the wrongs areas, I’ve now had to change the way I bend over to pick up stuff because of that. Not sleeping so well because of rude wake up calls, but that isn’t as much of an issue with the holy trainer vs the CB series. Hygiene in general is more difficult in chastity and maintenance like making sure I’m well lotions or oiled to minimized rubbing and chaffing.
As for denial that’s a different story. There really is only one thing to hate but it can also be loved. Sexual frustration is a weird thing, I can love it one day and hate it the next. All the variables can be the same but the outcome of love or hate can change. I can be teased one day for X amount of time and have no issues walking it off when Mistress says so, and there’s other days when I can have that same arousal level and the tease could be exactly the same but I don’t want to walk it, I want it to be finished off the proper way with an orgasm. Some days I handle it great and others I turn into a whinny little brat who doesn’t want orgasm denial. I have learned to deal with that better since I know Mistress really disapproves of it. Now I just become a desperate horny mess and try bargaining with her for an orgasm, that’s a different story so keep your eyes open for that. I’m not playing the blame game but I think part of it is because Mistress doesn’t set lengths of denial in stone, or doesn’t tell me about it if she does. I think if I was told I won’t be getting an orgasm until X date I could handle it better and not get whinny. But Mistress loves the mind trips she can send me on and as much as I try that’s not something I can get use to.
Thursday, 4 January 2018
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