Day 82

Wow 82 days with out an orgasm or release! I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and I hope these next 18 days fly right by.

Nothing major has happened in the last few weeks. Play time has been minimal so my hornyness and frustration seems to leveled out again.  The last few days I’ve had the desire to please again but only had the chance to fill that urge once.

I showed signs of weakness last week and asked Mistress if she would try to release some pressure. I had a butt plug in and asked Mistress if she would put a vibrator against it in hopes of that helping to hit the right spot. After a bit of foreplay she made me select the vibrator I wanted and roll over into little spoon position so she could accommodate my request and still play with my nipples. I instantly enjoyed the new sensation the second the vibrator came in contact with the butt plug. As much as I enjoyed the combination of the two toys it wasn’t enough to provide the result I wanted. Mistress moved the vibrator around on the base of the plug but it never really hit the right spot.  About 10 minutes in I knew it was hopeless so I asked Mistress to stop. She moved the vibrator to the front and put it against my cage and I instantly asked her to please stop, we did that in the past and it gave me a ruined orgasm and I didn’t want to risk that again during this challenge.  In the end I was left more frustrated and feeling defeated.  We do have other toys and approaches we can try but I think I’m just going to try to ride out the rest of my 100 days with no relief.

Mistress confessed to me that she has no intention of pushing me past 100 days at this point.  She thinks I’ve handled this very well so far and I deserve my reward. I had mixed feelings when she told me this and I truly believed she wasn’t going to end it on day 100. I was the one who picked 100 days and I thought she would push me past that just to prove that she makes the calls. As for my mixed emotions I wanted Mistress to grow from this experience, does it really show growth or advancement if I’m set free and get an orgasm on the day I picked? But on the other I’m really looking forward to that long awaited release so I’m happy she won’t be pushing me past the 100 days.