A thrown for my Queen.

 Pleasing my Mistress orally has become one of my favourite activities over the years. I’ve never had an issue with going down on her but prior to our female led relationship I usually only did it when asked or to get the same in return. Even in the early stages of our adventure I still treated it as a quid pro quo situation but that has drastically changed. I honestly can’t even remember the last time I was in Mistresses mouth let alone allowed to finish in her mouth, mean while at least a quarter of her orgasms are now provided by my tongue. 

 Now a days I’m always willing to dive between Mistresses thighs ( depending on the time of month) and stay down there until she taps out and demands me to stop, for the most part I still wait until I’m ordered to go down but can’t always wait for that command. My main reason for waiting for orders these days is  just to be told what to do and this ensures Mistress is in full control of our sexual activities and getting exactly what she wants. If we are both hands on with each other and I’m struggling to stay away from the edge I might dive under the blankets to get me away from the edge and to drive Mistress over the edge. If I’m really craving Mistresses sweet peach I’ll usually resort to asking/ begging if she will sit on my face. 

 I love it when Mistress climbs up top and traps my head between her thighs, I think it is a huge power dynamic  and really shows who’s in control for obvious reasons. Unfortunately Mistress doesn’t like it on top as much, she finds it more difficult  to reach orgasm or doesn’t have the biggest orgasms, she also worries that she may be hurting or suffocating me.  So because of her reasons she usually doesn’t spend too much time on top and makes sure she is close to the edge before even mounting my face, essentially she reserves it as a reward for me.

 As I’ve stated in the past we are fairly competitive with each other when it comes to games or sports and like to make wagers of the sexual kind and oral sex has been a common bet. Since things are now more one sided to who receives and who gives the oral pleasure I had to come up with a new wager that would strike Mistresses interest. I proposed  if Mistress can beat me in a round of golf she gets to enjoy some oral pleasure in the position of her choosing but if I win she has to sit on my face. It’s obviously a win win situation for Mistress and I still can’t complain if I lose. 

 Mistress lost the first few rounds of golf so that got me thinking about a special chair for her that would help with sitting on my face. I’ve seen smother boxes and queening stools online before but you don’t see too many actual chairs.  I didn’t mind the concept of the smother box where essentially my head is trapped/ locked in a box that leaves my face exposed to be used but I wanted something more comfortable for Mistress to sit on.  If Mistress isn’t comfortable than a piece of furniture like that won’t get used and would be a waste of money if I had to buy it.  So I decided to build her a chair instead. 

 I’m not a professional wood worker or even a ticketed carpenter but I do have a few saws and haven’t lost a finger yet so why not give it a try! The hardest part for me was taking the vision from my head to the work bench without an actual blueprint. I did do up a little sketch but I had to guess or figure out all the measurements on my own as I went. It had to be wide enough that my shoulders would fit through, high enough for me to fit under but not too high to put me in an awkward position and the seat had to be comfortable for Mistress but still have an opening to leave her goods exposed. 

 A toilet seat was my first thought but I didn’t want Mistress to think I had different intentions with this chair so I opted to a U or horseshoe shaped design. I started with 3 random pieces of wood laid out trying to figure out how wide to make the opening, eventually I got smart and used my hat as a spacer since that’s the size of my head.  The width of the seat had to be based off of my shoulder and head width and I found the length of the seat by measuring different chairs. 

 Once I got everything all cut and nailed together I placed the seat on a milk crate and asked Mistress to try it out for height. The height seemed right so I started building the legs and screwed the seat to them and got Mistress to take it for another test sit. So far everything was good I just had to brace it up a bit to make it more sturdy and add a back to it. All said and done after a few hours in the garage we had something that  looked and functioned like a chair except for the uniquely designed seat. I’m not 100% done it yet as far as a finished look goes and might still add arm rests but I wanted to test it out for functionality before I invested too much more time and material into it. 

 Life has been busy so we’ve only tested it out once so far. Mistress found it a bit awkward because she was trying to move towards me instead of sitting all the way back in the seat. As for me I built it a bit snug for more shoulders but I still fit underneath it. I tried propping a pillow up underneath my head but it didn’t give me enough height and that’s why Mistress felt the need to move forward to me. If I can’t get pillows to give me the right height I might have to add a hammock that my head can rest in. 

 I’m really eager to try the throne out more and hope that Mistress can be comfortable using it and actually want to use it more on a regular basis. My main purpose for building the throne was for Mistress to start using oral services/ worship more as an act of dominance and not just a sexual act. I want her to demand it more without necessary already being aroused. If we can start treating it more like worship and not just a sexual act that only happens in bed it should help Mistress with concentrating more on her pleasures and less with mine. I’m continuing to get more pleasure out of pleasing so even if I’m denied physical pleasure/ attention I’m still getting aroused and pleasure out of pleasing. The more we work on that the less guilty Mistress should feel about denying me orgasms / releases. 

Milestones

Milestone is defined as a significant point in development. They can be goals you’ve set to work towards or they can just be achievements you’ve accomplished without really meaning to. It doesn’t matter if you’re a beginner or a seasoned veteran there will always be a milestone to cross if you choose to. 

 The minute you decide (or someone decides for you) to try out chastity you’ve reached or crossed your first milestone. Than there is buying your first device milestone followed by the break in period of your device milestones which includes first full day, first time sleeping in your device than first full week. Essentially every day, week or month longer you spend in chastity is a milestone but after time you may not look at it that way and only count the major milestones. 

 Three months was a major milestone for me and I thought why not just do 8 or 9 days to make it an even 100 days. Since than I’ve crossed the 100 day marker a few times but haven’t made it to my next major milestone.  Six months or half a year is the next major milestone I have in mind, from there I don’t know if I should jump right to a full year or just 3/4s of a year. My last lengthy lockdown was 19 weeks so 7 weeks short of half a year, I wanted to keep pushing but Mistress had final say when it ended. 

I haven’t really talked to Mistress too much about the half a year milestone but the full year milestone has been brought up and there is a plan for that in our future, I’ll get into more details about that in a later post. One full year will be a very major milestone for me and I haven’t even started to consider what will be after that. You’d think it would be a year and a half than 2 year milestone but do I even want to go that far or more importantly does Mistress want to take it any further than that? As always I’ll just have to wait and see but that is still a few years down the road. 

Long time no blog

 Sorry for my absence to anyone that is a dedicated reader, life got busy than I kind of forgot about this blog. If I do have any dedicated readers please become a follower and I will try to be better about posting more frequently. 

Picking up from my last post, I was released from chastity shortly after and we did the on and off thing for a few months and than I spent the majority of the summer free. I had to break down and request to be locked up again. Mistress decided that my fate would be decided by the chastity challenge game again. It wasn’t pre decided how many times I’d press the random button, Mistress just told me to keep going until she was happy with the duration. She obviously had it in her mind to push me to a new record because she didn’t say stop until I was passed 120 days. In the end it resulted in 19 weeks of chastity and about a week longer of denial ending in an accident when a tease went too far. 

I handled that duration fairly well and it seemed to go by rather fast. I was released in mid February and spent about 3 months free. I am now locked back up again and just passed the nine week marker of denial. I’m not expecting this to be another record breaker, it’s just taking me that long to dig my way out of the orgasm debt I occurred during those 3 months of freedom. I’m now finally eligible for 1 orgasm but I’d prefer to earn at least 1 more just so I have a little insurance policy incase I have an accident that drives me back in debt. 

I spent about 70% of last year locked in chastity and if my math is right I’ll have to spend the rest of the year locked up if I want to achieve that again. I’ve dropped hints about that but Mistress didn’t seem to keen on it. As always I’ll just have to wait and see where she wants to take it.

Still in the dark

  I’ve been locked up since the beginning of December and my last orgasm was 7 weeks ago. I still dunno how long Mistress will push me to go or if she even has any real plans. The only information that Mistress has given me is that it won’t be any time soon. 

 I’ve been trying my hardest this year not to fish for any information or say anything that might influence a decision by Mistress.  Along with that I’m also trying not to ask for an orgasm. My mind set to that is when Mistress wants to unlock me or allow an orgasm it will be 100% her decision. 

 Most of our play time lately has been mainly directed to Mistress which keeps my teasing to a minimum. I receive enough attention to get/keep me aroused but not enough to push me to the edge. There has been play sessions when I don’t receive any sexual attention at all but I still get aroused just from being able to pleasure Mistress. By avoiding the edge I haven’t had as many accidents/ unauthorized orgasms as in the past and that is the main factor for bringing my orgasm count down so much last year. 

 I’m not too sure what to expect from this year. I don’t see me being allowed to have more orgasms than last year (11) but I don’t think that number will significantly drop either. I’m still hoping for double digits but I honestly don’t know what Mistress will allow. We still have our 10 to 1 ratio and I’m allowed to carry over the unclaimed orgasms from last year, with the carry over I’m almost eligible for 2 orgasms.  I would like to set a new record this year but I’m trying not to ask for it. If Mistress pushes me close to my current record of 17 weeks on her own I might break down and ask to set a new record. 

Unknown duration

 I’ve been locked back up for just over 2 weeks now and haven’t had an orgasm in about 3 weeks, I have no clue how long this stretch will be. 

 Mistress likes to use the element of surprise in her favour and rarely tells me exactly what’s going through her mind. She’s been doing this almost the entire time we’ve been playing with chastity and denial and I just can’t get use to it no matter how hard I try.  My way of dealing with it was to always plan for the worst, that was easy back in the day when my longest stretch of chastity and denial was only 30-40 days. But now that I’ve cleared 100 days I find it harder to plan for the worst. I tend to go on what I call “fishing trips” and get what ever little information I can out of Mistress, but sometimes I can’t even get a bite! 

 We had a talk the other night about clarity of duration and I explained to Mistress that I like having a rough idea of how long she’s thinking but I don’t want an exact time frame. If I had an exact time frame it would seem too scheduled and Mistress might feel obligated to stick to that date even if she had a change of mind.  I went on to say even if I had a minimum time frame it would probably help me handle the situation better. Her example to that was “ so I could tell you that you are going to be locked up for at least 20 days even if I was actually thinking more like 6 months, and that would still help you?” All I could really say to that was “ well it would help me get through the first 20 days I guess”. Than she went on to talk about how she thinks I enjoy being pushed and setting new records more than I actually like orgasms. I had to agree with her, I like working towards a goal and essentially the orgasm is just my reward for reaching my goal. 

 So now here I am wondering if her example was just hypothetical or if it was intended to be a hint of what’s ahead of me.  Usually she gives me a decent break between challenges or setting records before we move onto the next challenge. But I guess I was the one that cut this break short. If it’s going to turn into challenge after challenge my amount of orgasms are going to drastically drop and my time in chastity will almost be full time.  As always I just have to wait and see or learn how to bait my hook better on my next fishing trip! 

Locked up again.

 After having two weeks of freedom I’m safely locked back in my cage again. I think I started to miss my cage after only 1 week of freedom and after having an accident with minimal direct contact to Mistresses property I convinced her it might be better off to have me locked back up again. 

 Mistress had no intentions of locking me back up this soon, she was going to leave me free until after the holiday season. The day after my accident I suggested locking back up but Mistress thought that would be going easy on me and that we should be using this freedom time to work on my control. We got into a lengthy conversation a few nights ago ( after several adult beverages) and that’s when Mistress changed her mind on my freedom status. Due to the amount of beverages I can’t really remember the exact things said that made her change her mind but I do remember talking about my hair trigger and how much work it would actually take to get my control back to where it use to be.  

 My buffer zone is gone but I only need to give Mistress one more orgasm before I am eligible for another of my own. I was hoping to save that one for later in the month and if I worked hard enough I might be able to earn another one before the year is over. Just because I earn or am eligible for those orgasms doesn’t mean that Mistress has to grant them, for all I know I’ve already had my last orgasm of the year.  No actual time frame or duration was discussed about this lock up so I just need to settle in for the long haul and plan for the worst.  

120 days

 My new record has officially been set at 120 days without an orgasm. Mistress finally let me cum the other night and it felt great, it wasn’t amazing or over the moon by any means.  I really can’t handle too much attention below the waist anymore before I’m at the edge, there was several times when I had to ask Mistress to please stop or remove her hand. When she finally did give me permission to cum it felt like she was barely even holding her property, I wasn’t watching but it felt like she was only using her thumb and 2 fingers to lightly stroke me. I held off as long as I could and it felt like I let off a few good shots, 120 days of waiting was over in a matter of minutes ( not counting for play). 

 I’m not sure what my future holds, I’m still eligible for 1 more orgasm and only a few good play sessions away from earning another if Mistress allows.  I’ve only been free for a few days but I do think I’m missing my cage.  I’m not sure if Mistress is missing/wanting actual intercourse and that will most likely be the factor of when I get locked back up.  The way things are looking I’ll be lucky to get 3 more orgasms this year, bringing my total up to 12. But just because I earn them doesn’t mean Mistress has to grant them, as always I just have to wait and see what she has planned.